So I met that guy in Westminster. The interview was great but the job is awful. The guy has been trying to phone me all day but thank goodness I have been out. I told him I had accepted another offer. Yes, I LIED.

I am so cold. I've just been to check out another room. This one was quite nice and the girl seemed lovely, but I don't know what to do. Do I start paying rent before I have a job? Do I start temping till I hear about the other job? My dad phoned and said I needed to phone his sister in Birmingham IMMEDIATELY and go visit there for a while. I said I would, but am not going to just yet. Yes, I lied again. What have I become?

Brrrrrrr.

By the way any advice is welcome! I need advice!

I'm at Beverley and Richard's place now still looking for work. At the moment I have a 'meeting' tonight with some guy. He wants to meet me outside the Westminster tube station at 18:30 for an informal chat about a job. If I don't blog again in a few days you'll know I have been abducted.

Tomorrow night I am supposed to meet another guy about a waitressing job at a South African restaurant. Waitressing was really supposed to be my last option. I can just see myself getting stuck there and before you know it I will be 30 and waitressing. I have 2 days to sort something else out, or at least make up my mind about waitressing. It's a live-in position which makes it even more convenient, but then I won't have the 'fear' in me to go for something else. (I saw that episode of Friends last night where Rachel quits waitressing to get the 'fear' in her to motivate her to look for something else. A sign??)

I've just been mailed about a room in Southfields which I should check out on my way to Westminster.

My life is a big question mark right now.

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